I can't help but place some blame on the person who made that weapon available to you, even though she knew about your moods and behavior. Due to legal circumstances, she was not allowed to own or possess firearms or ammunition. Yet, she had both. And somehow, after multiple investigations, she is not going to be held to any type of responsibility, and you were just "another kid" who killed himself. No one really seems to care that your life is over, and she still has her life. She had 83 days of you. I had 8262. She had no idea who you really were. And now…..
She gets to live.
She gets to breathe.
She gets to grow old.
She gets to keep going.
She gets to make music.
She gets to have memories.
You do not.
You are quiet.
You are still forever.
You are now dust in a box.
I try to keep my contempt towards her under control, but some days it is very, very difficult.
Pain.
Grief.
Anger.
Sadness.
Emptiness.
Disappointment.
Those are mine to explore.
But one thing that no one can take from me are the memories I have of you.
The precious videos, pictures and mementos.
As you walk away from me forever.
Those things belong to me.
Always.
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